Al-Madinah Al-Munawwarah, Al-Masjid An-Nabawi As-Sharif, leaving, Ramadhan 1436


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…long before this majestic Ramadhan full moon glided over Madinatun Nabi I have spent hours staring at a blank screen…wondering how and what to write. Sleep has been elusive with words crashing and pounding in a heavy head.  Do I explain all the nitty gritty details? layers of reasons? Right now I just want this to be said and said simply. We are leaving Madinah al Munawwarah on the 18th of July for an unknown duration.

Allah Ta’ala’s Hikmah is beyond our comprehension. We are His servants and move according to His Plans. We were moved here under the most amazing circumstances and gratitude will never be enough in expressing the beauty this blessing has been, and will forever be in my heart.  Alhumdulillah for Allah Ta’ala granting this space where I have been blessed with the most beautiful connections. Every one of you is so very dear and special to me. If it is written that we do not meet again in this realm then Insha’Allah may it be for Eternity in His Garden of Bliss, Ameen.

Just as I am not to question the why or wherefore of Allah Ta’ala’s Grand Plans, I ask for you to respect the emotional state I am in, by finding the grace as I am finding, in what Islam truly means: SUBMISSION and paying more attention to deepening our Tawwakul…may all the grandeur of this Mubarak Night of Power shower you and all your loved ones…Insha’Allah you find solace in these short but incredibly blessed hours…

Apologies, but I do not intend replying to any more comments…these last few moments are so precious for all of us…may our Ibadah be intense with a tight focus on the big picture…so much more effort needs to be devoted to what is more important during these final fleeting hours… we need each other’s dua…the ‘list’ is with me wherever I may be…may all who yearn to be ‘neighbours’ be called again and again, Ameen.

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…I humbly ask for your forgiveness for any harm or wrong I have committed against you and for all shortcomings you may have witnessed from this needy sinner…

…and this blog…Allahu ‘Alum what destiny is written for this space…more than ten years have been devoted to sharing…maybe it is time to ponder a book…may Allah The Almighty guide us all in all our affairs and keep us all on the Straight Path, Ameen…

…Insha’Allah I will be in contact as soon as possible from ‘down under’…maybe with some ‘retrospective’ reflections…

…leaving one imprisoned state for another…Allahu Akbar Kabeera…there is such an abundance of sweetness in submission…

All good is from Allah Ta’ala whereas mistakes are from this humble speck. May Allah Ta’ala Bless all readers, bringing you all closer to Him and His Rasul SallAllahu alaihi wasallam.  May He accept our humble efforts and grant us the capacity to be good and do good. Ameen.


  • Muhammad Reply
    July 13, 2015 at 3:37 pm

    May Allah rise your status..and for us sinners as keep us in your prayers in sha Allah…Bijahi Sayiduna Muhammad rassolillah.

  • Anisa Reply
    July 13, 2015 at 3:42 pm

    Assalamu alaikum
    May Allah bless you and your family. Ameen

  • Chitra Reply
    July 13, 2015 at 5:51 pm

    Keeping you all in my prayers……

  • Ridhwana Reply
    July 14, 2015 at 4:04 am

    Duas….. Duas…. Duas…

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  • Ridhwana Reply
    July 14, 2015 at 4:09 am

    No Arabic?

    Ya habeebatee, laa tanzanite, innaLLaha Ma’anaa daai’man

    Wa innaki satakooni min jeeraani Habeebina SallaLLahu Alayhi wasaLLam daa’iman hatta fil Firdawsil aa’laa ma’a Azwaajihi, wa AwlaadiHi, wa atbaai’hi wa man ittaba’ahum bi insaanin ilaa Yawmid Deen… Aameen

  • Ridhwana Reply
    July 14, 2015 at 4:11 am

    * tahzanee

  • Ayd Reply
    July 14, 2015 at 9:15 am

    Dearest sister Al miskeenah….Allah Tala only does what is Khair and best for us.
    U will be missed …. your blog is the most amazing…

    Haj 1436 ? Allah Tala knows best.

    I make shukr for having met at Haramain Shareefain. And inshallah we meet again.. If not here.. then Jannat Ul Firdous aameeen.

    Allah Tala grant excellent taqdeer filled with aafiyat and barakat. Aameen.

    Fee Amanillah (sob)

  • Ahamed Naveeth Reply
    July 14, 2015 at 11:05 am

    Dear sister miskeenah,
    All the awliya allah had incredible visions and closeness with allah, then sudden he cuts it out, veils them and see their qalb for a period and he sees and loves that submission and then he lifts that veil again giving them even more incredible visions and closeness that compared tat to their previous visions, it wud be nothing.
    similar test for u, dont worry. but in such circumstances Gawdul a’lam muhiyiddeen abdul kader al jilani qaddasallahu said he used to lie in floor and say “fa innama’al usri usran fa innama’al usri usra” and the hardships eased away.
    so i pray allah subhanahu ta’ala gives u strength to stand the test and bring u to the closeness of the beloved. better than ever insha allah aameen ya rabb bi barakathil habib muhammadin sallahu alaihi wa sallam

  • binti umar Reply
    July 14, 2015 at 5:35 pm

    In distance do hearts grow fonder……….. may Allah with aafiya keep you whereever it is your and your loved ones destiny. ameen. Souls never are apart as they meet with Allahs leave so a little wordly distance is not a barrier but a even bigger reason to sharpen the wakefulness of the soul – please Allah bless us all with this sound heart so that distance no longer exists . Lots of love. Feamanillah.

  • Ali Reply
    July 15, 2015 at 12:00 am

    Dear sister

    I am stunned, it’s absolutely shocking news to having to depart from the noble sanctuary. Over the years you have been our conduit to blessed city, one will be lost without the gems of wisdom and news from the city of peace. May he the blessed return you safely to his beloveds city soon.
    I hope in the interim your are blessed in whichever state our rabb keeps you.
    Ma asalama
    Ali (England -London)

  • Ali Reply
    July 15, 2015 at 12:41 am

    I can’t get over you leaving, it must be a million times harder for you to leave; oh the last glimse of roudha as sharif…, such a heart wrenching moment …… My heart goes out to your pain…

    Oh who will now air the ‘list’….
    Ali (England)

  • Sahebju Reply
    July 15, 2015 at 9:20 am

    Asssalamualaikum varahmatullahi vabarakatahu,
    You are our key link to madina al munawwara, which we love most. Miss you. May Allah subhana va taala bless you in this world and hereafter. Aameen bihurmati sayyedil mursaleen. Remember us in your dua. Wassalam

  • ummayesha Reply
    July 16, 2015 at 5:03 pm

    Oh Aunty what can we say but Allah’s Wisdom is Mighty and Everlasting… May you take the beloved sallallahu alaihi wa sallam’s love and gaze with you in every step and fill Australia with its NUR opening the way for many to embrace Islam and come to know the Beloved of Allah sallallahu alaihi wa sallam. What greater service!!! Such heart felt duas with you at this time – May Allah grant you such lofty ranks for your submission and ease each day. (some of our relatives live in Australia so maybe we will meet one day there singing the beloved’s praise sallallahu alaihi wa alihi wa sallam) until then my love and appreciation for every word you have beautifully shared with us all. JAZAKUM ALLAHU KHAIRAN xxxxxxx

  • Iffat Reply
    July 16, 2015 at 5:28 pm

    As salaamu alaykum dear one, to you and the Noble Resident by whom you reside. May you be RasoolAllah’s neighbour in this realm– whether physically or in heart– and the Next always always… Recite our special dua for yourself too upon that Farewell.

  • Upset Hippo Reply
    July 16, 2015 at 9:02 pm

    Love x x x x Peace x x x x Prayers x x x x Hope

  • Asma Reply
    July 17, 2015 at 12:24 am

    Oh Khala, may Allah take you by the hand and shroud you in His Enabling Grace; and allow you to return over and over again either physically or metaphysically to our beloved Prophet, peace and blessings be upon him. Ameen.

    I’ve been a silent reader for a while and more so since meeting you in February 2015 amongst the camp of Shaykh Tanwir. I never said it before but feel it’s necessary now: thank you for the last ten years of history that I missed out whilst being distracted here in the UK. I’ve yet to go through each and every post but hope to continue to learn from this beneficial space. May Allah reward you time and time again. Ameen.

  • saimah Reply
    July 17, 2015 at 8:12 pm

    INNA LILLAHI WA INNA ELAHE RAJEOON. AND YES ÀLHAMDOLILLAH ALA KULE HAL. We all submit to Allah ‘s decree. I can’t bring my self to believe this but I will with tears sobs and prayers oh how I will miss you and your blog,,,,,,
    wassalmoalaikum wa rehmatulah wa barakatuhu my dearest sister
    love always

  • Ikramuddin Syed Reply
    July 18, 2015 at 7:51 am

    Salam dearest sister and brother SN,

    The hearts will always remain connected to that most precious soil… be you a meter or thousands of kilometres away.

    Your reward and upliftment is undoubtedly with Allah Ta’ala… May His Infinite Rains of Rahma pour down on you both, may they wash away the heartache and fill you with a rejuvenated vigour and yearning!

    Duas for us always dear sister and SN. And duas for you both always as well…

  • kimti Reply
    July 19, 2015 at 11:22 pm

    I can’t believe my eyes sis.what I am reading?how will I come close to madina.??????you were my connection to my beloved city.what will I do now?oh sister !!!!how will you live now.?

  • Umm Shams Reply
    July 27, 2015 at 6:39 pm

    La hawla wala quwwata illa bilLah. Assalamu’alaikum warahmatuLlah dearest. I’m so sorry to hear of this heartbreaking news. I’ve come to check on your blog regularlyL to remember, to rekindle, and to reconnect myself to the Radiant City that was home to me for a brief 2 years, 20 some years ago.
    And I find more. I had enjoyed & benefitted from your sharing tremendously. AlhamduliLlah. May Allah continue to bless you, to benefit others by your presence, and keep you in His care wherever He places you. May the Most Generous grace us with good in this world, grant us a beautiful end, and welcome us with His pleasure the Day we meet Him.
    Love & hugs to you.

  • Rashid Iqbal Reply
    August 3, 2015 at 8:12 pm

    Dear sister aoa

    This is my first and may be last post on this forum….I am shocked u r leaving. My connections are lost. Don’t know what made u to leave and how heavy it would have been

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